4 AM and 24 hours away....

So, its 4 AM on July 1st and I'm not sure I've slept a wink yet tonight. Is acid reflux, my wandering mind, my anxious feelings, my tiny bladder, or my general uncomfort to blame? Not sure, but I have gotten amazingly used to living without sleep, which was one of my biggest fears even before I ever got pregnant. I got up and figured this may be the perfect time to work on this here blog. I spruced it up a little but plan to do lots more - I have grande ideas for when I have time, but then again that may be a few years now!

Anyway, so my labor induction meets my in less than 24 hours and well, I can't begin to write all my thoughts and anxieties. But I really am amazingly calm about it all. I'm even surprising myself on that one... Across the room stares at me a baby swing, around the corner awaits a well-stocked baby room, beside my bed sits a cradle, and in my car's back seat perches a car seat, all of which are things that I have lived with for the past few days, weeks or months. However, its kind of dawining on not only me, but my husband as well, that a baby will now accompany all of these things in only a few short days. Out of the blue tonight he said (as he was cleaning his golf clubs and catching up on golf central nightly while sitting in his recliner) "I know we aren't planning on letting her sleep with us, but I bet it would be fun to let them sleep with you sometimes." I tried not to make a big deal about it, but my heart melted. He just exposed to me his very own "daddy heart". It showed me that even while watching golf and cleaning his clubs that he is still very much thinking about the baby, which makes me not feel like such a hair-brain for thinking of her at ALL points of the day:) (BTW, we decided it MIGHT be ok to let her get in the bed with us on Saturday mornings so we can have a little family bonding time snuggling with her:) AWW!

Anyway, so my dear precious Jillian will be here very soon, and I cannot wait to finally meet her face to face instead of face to belly:)